I don't wanna force a smile

In the dark isolated been here for a while, yeah

I contemplated suicide

Ain't no point of feeling pain if you just wanna die

But I survived the darkest from the belly of the beast

Kicked it with the demons that brought me this misery

And the rest is history yeah

quarter century

Got so many secrets that I'm keeping underneath

It's gonna take a lot

To crucify me

I run and hide

You will never find me

I need a plug

To supply me

With anything that's gonna make it sleep inside me

I don't wanna force a smile

In the dark isolated been here for a while

Contemplated suicide

Ain't no point of feeling pain if you just wanna die, yeah

I don't wanna force a smile

In the dark isolated been here for a while

Contemplated suicide

Ain't no point of feeling pain if you just wanna die

If I ever die

Cover me in wine

Made from all the fruits of my labor

Straight from the vine

Tired of the lies

I see it your eyes

If you wanna vibe

Baby tell me we could vibe

I'm like this every night

Stars up in the sky

Wonder if the moon will ever stop giving me light

And I just wanna shine yeah yeah

And I just wanna shine, and I just wanna shine

It's gonna take a lot

To crucify me

I run and hide

You will never find me

I need a plug

To supply me

With anything that's gonna make it sleep inside me

I don't wanna force a smile

In the dark isolated been here for a while

Contemplated suicide

Ain't no point of feeling pain if you just wanna die, yeah

I don't wanna force a smile

In the dark isolated been here for a while

Contemplated suicide

Ain't no point of feeling pain if you just wanna die