When I'm sitting in the backseat

I be staring at the window, looking for a signal

Wishin' life was simple 'cause no one understands me

I be livin' in my head, feel like my spirit is dead

I'm just tryin' to get ahead, anxiety has me

Feeling like I don't belong, so I sit and write these songs

There's nobody I can call, this all has me

Feeling so, yeah

I can't even lie and pretend

I feel like I'm on the edge, I want my torment to end

I locked all my issues up, but they just keep barging in

I fell so many ****ing times, I can't get up again

Devil keeps playing games, I keep letting him win

I wake up everyday, battling the pain I'm against

I feel alone, this is how my whole life has been

They see me as a percentage, or a flex to their friends

That's ****ed up, **** love 'cause, I don't wanna hear about it

I don't even drink but, get a bottle, I'ma down it

Even in an empty room, I'm feeling like it's hella crowded

'Cause my demons started creepin' in and leaving me surrounded

I just wanna walk away, and I swear I got a lot to say

Maybe I should pray, God find me 'cause I'm lost

These are always in my thoughts (My thoughts!)

When I'm sitting in the backseat

I be staring at the window, looking for a signal

Wishin' life was simple 'cause no one understands me

I be livin' in my head, feel like my spirit is dead

I'm just tryin' to get ahead, anxiety has me

Feeling like I don't belong, so I sit and write these songs

There's nobody I can call, this all has me (This all has me)

This all has me (Oh no)

Yeah

Sometimes I like to go for a ride, and play the music loud

Just so I can quiet my mind

My thoughts trickle and the voices keep feeding me lies

I push them aside, I run, but they gon' always arrive

I need to run run, need a someone, but I never did

Find love 'cause, I feel like it don't exist

And that's my ex's fault, and that's my fault too

'Cause I should've ran, but I took her back again

But it's okay, I'll take blame for it (Blame for it!)

And I know that karma's real when she gon' pay for it (Pay for it!)

And she promised a better future and I stayed for it (Stayed for it!)

Now my heart is cold, don't want love 'cause there's no place for it (No place!)

So I'm 'bout to move on (Move on), I would rather be alone

Trauma that I carried from a broken home

Got me hidden, different lows, tryin' to stay under control

But my thoughts, they just tend to roam (They tend to roam!)

When I'm sitting in the backseat

I be staring at the window, looking for a signal

Wishin' life was simple 'cause no one understands me

I be livin' in my head, feel like my spirit is dead

I'm just tryin' to get ahead, anxiety has me

Feeling like I don't belong, so I sit and write these songs

There's nobody I can call, this all has me (This all has me)

Yeah, this all has me (Oh no)