I pulled it off the wall and held it in my hands

The cold steel and wood

Turned a boy into a man

I held the hammer back

Fingers all red from the rust

And I knew exactly where daddy hid the shells from us

I left a note by the stove saying

I wouldn't be too long

I didn't want mama to call

Or come looking where I had gone

I been blinded by the pain and I own only had one thought

I set off for the woods

Pockets jangled while I walked

My hands were shaking, oh, so bad

I could hardly hold that gun

I shoved a round into the magazine

It was my last chance to run

If this is a cry for help

I'm crying out loud

"Help me understand"

When I let it go and it hit the ground

Turns out God had other plans

I felt the hand of God

As he led me off that ledge

I left the rifle lyin' there in the leaves with my regrets

Silhouette still in the paint

Where it hung up on the wall

Reminded me that I was saved

When I could have lost it all

My hands were shaking, oh, so bad

I could hardly hold that gun

I shoved a round into the magazine

It was my last chance to run

If this is a cry for help

I'm crying out loud

"Help me understand"

When I let it go and it hit the ground

Turns out God had other plans

My hands were shaking, oh, so bad

I could hardly hold that gun

I shoved a round into the magazine

It was my last chance to run

If this is a cry for help

Then I was crying out loud

But now I understand

When I let it go and it hit the ground

Turns out God had other plans

Turns out God had other plans