september 1st 1989
dear diary i believe i'm a good person
ya know i think there's good
in everyone but here we are
first day of senior year
and uh i look around at all
these kids i've known all my life
and i ask myself what happened
we were so tiny happy and shiny
playing tag and getting chased
singing and clapping
laughing and napping
baking cookies eating paste
then we got bigger
that was the trigger
like the huns invading rome
oh sorry
welcome to my school
this ain't no high school
this is the thunderdome
hold your breath
and count the days
we're graduating soon
college will be paradise
if i'm not dead by june
but i know i know
life can be beautiful
i pray i pray for a better way
if we changed back then
we could change again
we can be beautiful
just not today
hey are you okay
oh okay
things will get better
soon as my letter
comes from harvard duke or brown
wake from this coma
take my diploma
then i can blow this town
dream of ivy covered walls
and smoky french cafes
fight the urge to strike a match
and send this dump ablaze
ram sweeney third year as linebacker
and eighth year of smacking lunch trays
and being a huge dick
nothing
but i know i know i know
life can be beautiful
i pray i pray i pray
for a better way
we were kind before
we can be kind once more
we can be beautiful
agh hey martha
martha dunnstock
my best friend since diapers
yeah you're on jiffy pop detail
oh ho ho again
wait don't you have it memorized by now
kurt kelly quarterback
he is the smartest guy
on the football team
which is kind of like
being the tallest dwarf
hey pick that up right now
yes i am i wanna know what gives you
the right to pick on my friend
you're a high school has been
waiting to happen a future
gas station attendant
dear diary
why bracketed
then there's the heathers
they float above it all
heather mcnamara head cheerleader
her dad is loaded
he sells engagement rings
heather duke runs the yearbook
no discernible personality but
her mom did pay for implants
and heather chandler the almighty
she is a mythic bitch
they're solid teflon
never bothered never harassed
i would give anything to be like that
actually ms fleming all four of us
are out on a hall pass
yearbook committee
veronica sawyer i crave a boon
let me sit at your table at lunch
just once no talking necessary
if people think you guys tolerate
me they'll leave me alone
before you answer i also
do report cards permission
slips and absence notes
okay
and ya know ya know ya know
life can be beautiful
you hope you dream you pray
and you get your way
ask me how it feels
looking like hell on wheels
my god it's beautiful
i might be beautiful
and when you're beautiful
it's a beautiful frickin'day
veronica veronica
veronica veronica
