I don't know what I was thinking,

leaving my child behind

Now I suffer the curse

and now I am blind

With all this anger,guilt,and sadness

coming to haunt me forever

I can't wait for the cliff

at the end of the river

Is this revenge I am seeking

or seeking someone to avenge me

Stuck in my own parado

I wanna set myself free

Maybe I should chase and find

before they'll try to stop it

It won't be long

before I become a puppet

Its been so long,

since I last have seen my son

Lost to this monster

The man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone,

I've been singing this stupid song

so I could ponder

The sanity of your mother

I wish I lived in the present

with the gift of my past mistakes

But the future keeps luring in

like a pack of snakes

Your sweet little eyes,

your little smile is all I remember

Those fuzzy memories

mess with my temper

Justification is killing me,

but killing isn't justified

What happened to my son

I'm terrified

It lingers in my mind

and the thought keeps on getting bigger

I'm sorry my sweet baby

I wish I've been there

Its been so long,

since I last have seen my son

Lost to this monster

The man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone,

I've been singing this stupid song

so I could ponder

The sanity of your mother