Been staring at my phone for a minute
Trying to find words to lay down
How I want you to be around now
But everything I write down feels bitter
I should've stayed drinking downtown
At least I had some people around
Now everything's fading away
Why do I just keep hiding this pain
I keep on saying I'm fine
I'm fine
But baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
I tried to get to your mind on facetime
But now you hang up
Because I act drunk
Now I'm heavy headed
Staring at my bedroom wall
Knowing that I have to lose it all
I'll keep on saying I'm fine
I'm fine
But baby I'm not
I'm ******* messed up
Overthinking doesn't really cut it
Even though I'm sobering up
I'll never be sober enough to say
I confess that I couldn't manage
Too obsessed that I took the damage
Yeah I wish I wasn't this jealous careless
But now everything's fading away
Why do I just keep hiding this pain
I keep on saying I'm fine
I'm fine
But baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
I tried to get to your mind on facetime
But now you hang up
Because I act drunk
Now I'm heavy headed
Staring at my bedroom wall
Knowing that I have to lose it all
I'll keep on saying
I'm fine I'm fine
But baby I'm not
I'm ******* messed up
But baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
Over you
No baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
Everytime it's the same
No baby I'm not
No baby I'm not
I start to care
When it's all too late
No baby I'm not
And now I'm heavy headed
Staring at my bedroom wall
Knowing that I have to lose
It all
I'll keep on saying I'm fine
I'm fine
But baby I'm not
I'm ******* messed up
Messed up