In My Head 2

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nursepilotdyna

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It's been over a year since I wrote the first one and a lot has happened since then

So I thought I'd do it again and see where it took me

Here it is

When everything first started

I was kinda broken hearted

I felt I was disregarded

And left to be the target

Of the jokes made by the deceitful

Who before I saw as my equals

But now I see them as evil

Hoping their words won't be lethal

I never wanted to get into rap, it seemed that it wasn't for me

I was never looking for any of the attention or for any of the glory

But I felt that it was the only way to tell my side of the story

And now I'm feeling anything but celebratory

Didn't fully comprehend that there'd be consequences or repercussions

Now I'm left hating all of the times where I had to explain why I was just feeling like nothing

As a matter of fact, I was feeling much worse

Kuz I was attacked for what I put in the verse

Which led to all the disdain that people had for me causing me to go and converse

I spent so much time by myself avoiding talking to people the best I could

I no longer wanted to open up keep my thoughts inside where I thought they would

Stay away from the people who never knew me aside from the guy that withstood

All the drama that was caused and all the problems that had occurred

I got those demons in my head

The ones I want gone

The ones I want dead

The ones I wanna hide

By locking them deem inside

I got those demons in my head

(Those demons in my head)

I got those demons in my head

The ones I can't fight

They're showing up tonight

I wanna make it all right

I got those demons in my head

(Those demons in my head)

Everything was going good for me until I stupidly took a few missteps

My mind was running all over the place my thoughts were becoming way too complex

I didn't wanna worry about anything I didn't wanna worry about seeing success

That's when I let my guard down and I didn't pay attention to common sense

I should've just left like I normally did

Go to where I had commonly hid

But no I had to stay there and gamble with something I unwillingly bid

Until I ended up losing it all and eventually going down for it

The smell of mint still in the air, I was forced to dismount and forfeit

But through all of it I had come to understand that I was beginning to go down a dark road

I was losing grip of the helping hand and I was starting to feel that I was somewhat alone

Pushing away what was important to me I was dragged into a screwed up conflict

Words were fired like bullets until someone ratted and to it all I had to restrict

Its astonishing how they took something with good intentions and turned it into a mockery

They refer to me by it like an insult when it was originally for the contrary

And now I hear it everywhere I turn, I wish everyone could forget

That stupid name that I had come up with and now that I have come to repent

I got those demons in my head

The ones I want gone

The ones I want dead

The ones I wanna hide

By locking them deem inside

I got those demons in my head

(Those demons in my head)

I got those demons in my head

The ones I can't fight

They're showing up tonight

I wanna make it all right

I got those demons in my head

(Those demons in my head)

There have been so many times where I wanted to wave the white flag

Where I've thought about giving up because I couldn't take much more

So many nights where I've laid awake wondering if I have the strength to continue

If I can push through this pit of misery and loneliness

I've been hurt so many times I've started to act like I don't care when inside I'm actually screaming

I'm looking for a reason to keep myself going

And I'm looking for a way to get rid of all of these demons