lately i've just been dissociating

justifying contemplating

why i do the things i do and still don't feel at all

lately i've been feeling apathetic

when i care i feel pathetic

losing all the sympathy i once had for my friends

lately i've been feeling nothing

my happy peaks are getting stunted

i wanna cry but i don't

i wish you'd call i know you won't

if you did what would you say

what's done is done and it's too late

i hate this camp this i hate this place

somehow you're always in the way

lately i've just been here overthinking

wish i was smoking but i'm drinking

i wanna turn my head off so i just try not to feel

lately i've been feeling kinda lonely

like none of them had really known me

like everything's for show

and no man's really worth my trust

lately i've been feeling nothing

cause it's better than feeling some things

i tried to cry but i couldn't

i wished you'd call i know you shouldn't

if you did the shit i'd say

that you're the one that got away

i hate this campus i hate this place

somehow you're always in the way

oh oh oh

and i'm happy that you're doing better

and i'm happy that you found your peace without me

and i hope you make a billion dollars

and find yourself another lover

have the future that we planned together

and i'll sit here writing unsent letters

and i'll write a song or write another

have the sweater i got from your mother

and it's warm but you are always warmer

lately i've been feeling nothing

cause it's better than feeling something

i tried to cry but i couldn't

i wish you'd call i know you shouldn't

if you did the shit i'd say

that you're the one that got away

i hate this campus i hate this place

and i can't wait to graduate