“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that.
That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.
Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist.
Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid,
but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think.
I just want it all to stop spinning.
So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons.
And maybe we'll never know most of them.
But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from,
we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things.
And we can try to feel okay about them.
And I know these will all be stories some day,
and our pictures will become old photographs.
We all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now,
these moments are not stories. This is happening.
I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story.
You are alive.
And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder.
And you’re listening to that song, and that drive with the people who you love most in this world.
And in this moment, I swear,
we are infinite.”
