Composer : Clayton Roney/Brady Ponder
Holding in my heart
It's beating like it's coming through my chest
Panicking again I just can't seem to catch my f**king breath
Count to 10 but nothing's changin'
Thoughts are raging in my head
Every time I swear this is the last time I'll get out of bed
But you said I was on my own
I've never quite felt so alone
But this anxiety inside of me keeps pushing me ahead
Medication all I need
It's just as bad as the disease
When I abide by my prescriptions
I keep wishing I was dead
You are my hate
You follow me
My only strength, why can't you see?
You're my best friend
My worst enemy
I can't live without you
But with you, I can't breathe
You're breaking up, I barely hear you through the static on your phone
I'll be fine, I just need time to heal so please leave me alone
Panicking again that anything you say might not be real
That you never loved me
You just loved the way I made you feel
But you said I was someone else
You hate the way I hate myself
But this anxiety inside of me, it keeps me up at night
You want me and I want more
I jump and wash up on the shore
Now I've chosen
I'm broken from my whole f**king life
You are my hate
You follow me
My only strength, why can't you see?
You're my best friend
My worst enemy
I can't live without you
But with you I can't breathe
Your god doesn't love me
Your god doesn't love me
Your god doesn't love me
And I can't breathe
